I Finally Accept,

That My Lady does not want to get married again. 

Awoke accepting she doesn't want to get married again even to me.

I sent the following text to her this morning: "Don't be concerned about me surprising you with a proposal anymore. I have no plans to ask you to marry me anymore since you keep saying you don't want to get married again. Let's enjoy today and its opportunities and pray we awaken again to do it all again🙏"  She text back, "thank you."

And that my readers is the toughest text I have ever felt compelled to send. Sad making. You see we see remarriage differently. No changing that. Acceptance. Still she is the woman I always prayed to meet to marry. No changing that either. The Serenity Prayer in full motion. Saddens me to no end. God must physically place any other relationship that He blesses me with, directly personally onto my actual lap with a letter of confirmation; otherwise I am done with thinking, searching, dating, trying for any other relationship. Other than friendship. 

I finally accept that I will not get married again or place myself in the position of developing any relationship towards marriage. I finally understand those I have met in life who do not want a deep personal relationship with anyone again in their lives; because of the depth of love they feel for another. You know the kind of love which transcends all other connections with all other humans. 

I finally accept that My Lady does not want to get married again.

I finally accept that as with my sobriety is forever, there is no forever relationship with My Lady; and that I am not attempting any forever relationship again with any woman. I hurt too much.

Yes Sobriety Is The Bomb And I thank God Constantly Throughout Each Day That I Am Sober.

I also thank Him throughout the day for introducing me to My Lady. I wouldn't have it any other way.

I Finally Accept My Forever Is A Forever Without My Lady.

God, give me grace to accept with serenity

the things that cannot be changed,

Courage to change the things

which should be changed,

and the Wisdom to distinguish

the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,

Enjoying one moment at a time,

Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,

Taking, as Jesus did,

This sinful world as it is,

Not as I would have it,

Trusting that You will make all things right,

If I surrender to Your will,

So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,

And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.

O God and Heavenly Father,  Grant to us the serenity of mind to accept that which cannot be changed; courage to change that which can be changed, and wisdom to know the one from the other, through Jesus Christ our Lord, Amen.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

Courage to change the things I can,

and Wisdom to know the difference.

It is what it is.

Thank God I Am Sober.