BEST WAY To Follow The Forage.

22 February 2017

BEST $109 I EVER SPENT IN MY LIFETIME.

One way to get rid of the dead weight of a stinking drinking lying practicing alcoholic is to apply bus ticket therapy. Bloody Well Did Me Awesome Wonderful!!!
Heck all I knew was Greyhound would eventually get him to Albuquerque and the commuter rail to Santa Fe and the region bus to Taos. I didn't care at all about scheduling because I was finally free of my drinking lying friend of 33 years. Last straw for this sober alcoholic and reflection time.

BOY IS THERE MORE TO THIS STORY TO COME.

Maricopa County Health and Sheriff's Department Report's Filled Out By Me.

Much much more on this!!!!

17 February 2017

A Drive Testing Every Limit Of My Christianity AND Compassion.

Drinking stinking fool thought he could sneak a drink by me for a week? SHEET!!!
I picked him up in Taos. Should have known he was sinking drinking lying when he forgot his Big Book. He's lucky during this day he didn't end up roadside like I promised, buzzard snack and all!!!

This day is so full of fun to report we BOTH gotta come back to this page!!!

14 February 2017

C.H. Is Dumped For The First And Second Times, More To Come. Ambulance Ride.

THE ONLY WAY for me to digest and disseminate what transpired is to free myself from it one step by formulating my ideas here.

You won't be getting it all; just a few ugly tastes:+(

12 February 2017

Not Much

Church and learning about C.H.'s oxygen needs increasing and meeting disasters to come. And D.H.'s possible sobriety.

10 February 2017

In Many Ways Today Was A Beginning And A One Third Of The Way Point.

Today my friend C.H. and I drove in my car from Tulsa to Oklahoma City to catch a train to Fort Worth the next day. Normal day at work. I have received previous supervisor approval to arrive and leave early in order to arrive in Oklahoma City with enough time to enjoy dinner and a good night's sleep.
work in progress SO this is gonna kinda be like a Quentin Tarantino movie and will be updated periodically BECAUSE
So much has transpired from 28 January 2017 until 29 march and now that I am only now formally composing my story re all of the long strange trip it's been.

09 February 2017

Beyond My Alcoholism. Parent Alienation Syndrome.

November/December 2008 Issue 
Parental Alienation Syndrome — The Parent/Child Disconnect
By Amy J. L. Baker, PhD
Social Work Today
Vol. 8 No. 6 P. 26
PARENT ALIENATION SYNDROME ARTICLE LINK
Eight Manifestations of Parental Alienation Syndrome
1. A Campaign of Denigration
Alienated children are consumed with hatred of the targeted parent. They deny any positive past experiences and reject all contact and communication. Parents who were once loved and valued seemingly overnight become hated and feared.
2. Weak, Frivolous, and Absurd Rationalizations
When alienated children are questioned about the reasons for their intense hostility toward the targeted parent, the explanations offered are not of the magnitude that typically would lead a child to reject a parent. These children may complain about the parent’s eating habits, food preparation, or appearance. They may also make wild accusations that could not possibly be true.
3. Lack of Ambivalence About the Alienating Parent
Alienated children exhibit a lack of ambivalence about the alienating parent, demonstrating an automatic, reflexive, idealized support. That parent is perceived as perfect, while the other is perceived as wholly flawed. If an alienated child is asked to identify just one negative aspect of the alienating parent, he or she will probably draw a complete blank. This presentation is in contrast to the fact that most children have mixed feelings about even the best of parents and can usually talk about each parent as having both good and bad qualities.
4. The “Independent Thinker” Phenomenon
Even though alienated children appear to be unduly influenced by the alienating parent, they will adamantly insist that the decision to reject the targeted parent is theirs alone. They deny that their feelings about the targeted parent are in any way influenced by the alienating parent and often invoke the concept of free will to describe their decision.
5. Absence of Guilt About the Treatment of the Targeted Parent 
Alienated children typically appear rude, ungrateful, spiteful, and cold toward the targeted parent, and they appear to be impervious to feelings of guilt about their harsh treatment. Gratitude for gifts, favors, or child support provided by the targeted parent is nonexistent. Children with parental alienation syndrome will try to get whatever they can from that parent, declaring that it is owed to them.
6. Reflexive Support for the Alienating Parent in Parental Conflict 
Intact families, as well as recently separated and long-divorced couples, will have occasion for disagreement and conflict. In all cases, the alienated child will side with the alienating parent, regardless of how absurd or baseless that parent’s position may be. There is no willingness or attempt to be impartial when faced with interparental conflicts. Children with parental alienation syndrome have no interest in hearing the targeted parent’s point of view. Nothing the targeted parent could do or say makes any difference to these children.
7. Presence of Borrowed Scenarios 
Alienated children often make accusations toward the targeted parent that utilize phrases and ideas adopted from the alienating parent. Indications that a scenario is borrowed include the use of words or ideas that the child does not appear to understand, speaking in a scripted or robotic fashion, as well as making accusations that cannot be supported with detail.
8. Rejection of Extended Family
Finally, the hatred of the targeted parent spreads to his or her extended family. Not only is the targeted parent denigrated, despised, and avoided but so are his or her extended family. Formerly beloved grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins are suddenly and completely avoided and rejected.

06 February 2017

Two years. Six Month's Sober. We Must Change Societies Perception And Belief About Us Once We Are Sober.

Yes sir and ma'am today mark's my second year, six month of sobriety.

Most folk's who know that I am now sober never ask how my sobriety is going? There is some kind of societal thing, thought, or whatever which keeps them from asking. Maybe it's what the programs teach. I don''t know since I am one of those alcoholic's who were simply tired of praying to God Almighty to help Me get sober. Well yah once I stopped buying the poison yes I quit drinking and then He helped little ol'me. No magical wrecks or breakdown's of my car ever happened while I was driving sober to the liquor store in order to go home and poison myself near to death.
Do I struggle about having another drink? Not since about month two have I thought about honestly taking a drink of alcohol. I have consumed my life's share of the poison and I will take a pass on ever anymore consumption. All'you'all can split up the rest of my share and consume it for yourself.

I am so absolutely, awesomely, like totally ecstatic to be free that there is nothing that will ever lead me back to drinking.
I remained sober, when 77 days into sobriety dad died alone as he chose from cancer in Frisco, Texas; and then 43 day's later mom died from cancer also. Alcoholism is a disease just like diabetes, Alzheimer's and cancer. After remaining sober thru that, and maintaining my university 3.7 G.P.A. BY GOD I CAN AND WILL REMAIN SOBER THROUGH EVERYTHING ELSE IN LIFE BY GOD.

I will die sober. Can you honestly say you know anything of your death already like I do?

Well by God, isn't it about time for you to begin knowing how you will die.
We do not know whence the time of our death commences almost always.
Prepare ye the way of the Lord.

By God I am going to be sober when I die.

And chuckle inside when I hear those kind and thoughtful statements of:
"I am glad you are still sober", or so or some spin like that.
And then there are those who know I am sober, yet afraid either because of something personal, or some societal "norm" of reaction to those of use who delightfully remain sober alcoholics; and never ask.
I don't think outside of those of us who remain delightfully sober alcoholics, anybody else really understand how happy we are.

With societal suppression of alcoholic's first when we are practicing our poisoning, and then with our true convicted cessation, you'all "sober" people out there need to change how you think also about alcoholism just like I have honestly and truly explored.

I cannot really even begin to tell you how much I am ecstatically sober.
You are just going to have to join me in order to find out how much fun sobriety really and honestly can be once you begin.

For those of you who have never taken a drink of alcohol, awesome. Continue.
For those of you who have quit; CONGRATULATIONS. KEEP IT UP AND BE HAPPY.

For those of you who have never consumed alcohol;
I am so awesomely happy that you will never understand the entrapment of alcohol addiction.
 Thank God.