Begin By Quitting You Gladiator's of Sobriety

It's a bright new day each day sobriety begins.  Stepping through the pervasive fog and disregard which beset every day while existing in an alcohol induced haze is boggling, and yet continued.  We had no strength from which to find the truth and we foraged on the bitter grasses of regret, sorrow, yesterday, anger, all the metaphors of displeasure and dissatisfaction, even the angerous hate and disappointment in what we'd become.  We hid ourselves from the truth, we drowned our sorrows and they did not die no matter how subversive or perversive we tried; tho others succeeded in drowning.

Celebration comes from being free to walk the path of life with pride and joy that we are free at last.  This does not come without the price of fear, knowing without constant maintenance of ourselves and the awareness we must continue loving ourselves, life, others, and something Greater than ourselves, (For me, Christianity), that failure could become reality.  So we persevere day by day.

Perseverance brings celebration, but that too we must keep secret.  Our very heartfelt jubilation of celebrating sobriety we cannot share freely and openly with the world for fear.  Fear of what exactly? Fear that we are sober?  I think not, for that is our life now.  Fear that we might be looked down upon for failing and falling to our illness of addiction?  I think not, for we are finally able to hold our heads up high with pride; and we are conquering beasts I tell you.  The gladiators of sobriety.

Too bad so sad that we cannot all also post freely with our name associated about our sobriety like (click here =>Roger Ebert did in his blog.

My quitting was by and thru The Grace of God.  I just simply got tired of sending him the same old tired prayer of, "Oh God, please help me get sober."  I didn't take that first step until eventually, 6 August 2014 I took the Best step of my life.  Took that first step alone into sobriety however, God caught me and walked with me from then on. (I pictured for my standing up, the "Foot Print's in the Sand"; do whatever works for you.)  Big scary step I am here to tell you.  Awesome happy step too!

There is no right way to quit drinking alcohol, nor any wrong way to quit drinking alcohol.  Quitting you have to begin yourself.  Afterwards finding what works best for you to maintain your sobriety is the best way also.  Whether Celebrate Recovery, or A.A.; beginning by quitting is the first step to pronouncing; "Thank God Almighty (or whoever), I am sober at last."

Thank you reading.  Remember life is short so celebrate every moment before it's gone.  Go on now get along and enjoy your day.  ttyl8r.

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Traditions

"Better watch out."  "Never know when they're going to drink again."  "I can handle my drinking. Too bad they can't."  Blasted traditional mainstream thinking about alcoholics.

I know my intent, desire, resolve, resolution, and confounded determination, can carry me on and through sobriety with the strength of my being honest with myself.  Honesty in knowing that I am at risk of resumption of my practicing alcoholism; that I will be always at risk.  My strength comes from knowing these risks and practicing always in being honest with myself.  Hard being honest with oneself regardless of the unacceptable and risky behaviors, whether it's constantly driving over speed limit, over eating, or consuming alcohol in whatever form.  For simplification this blog will be about honesty in strength of knowing alcohol is be disaster for many of us, which without cessation, we can and will lose everything truly important.

So if I lose my self respect when I am a practicing alcoholic; why then must I hide in the shadows now that I have been a sober alcoholic twenty-one months, three weeks, and two days?  Have I brought so much shame for my consumption previous, that those who continue practicing consumption of alcoholic spirits now are scared of what might befall them from alcohol?  Am I a pariah since I drank more than my lifetime fair share of ethanol is such a short time?  Is there something more to this ostracizing of sober alcoholics than what exactly?  The shame, anger, and betrayal felt by those we have left in our wake is a problem.  Our hurting them will be in a future installment...For now this is about why we in our sobriety should feel compelled to hide the truth of our past and what we overcome.  We should only feel the pride and satisfaction of our perseverance of not only having come to being sober, but also in our maintenance of our sobriety.

The strength of my honesty in and of myself is that I am darned proud I am sober.  I begged God to help me obtain sobriety every morning for years.  One day I just could not stand another day feeling like half-baked death twice warmed up.  I have looked forward from that day of my remaining sober.  I am proud to be sober.  "But you never know when alcoholics might drink again. It happens...it's okay...you can just quit again..." said a relative of mine.

I waited years while knowing deep down that I was an alcoholic who was practicing; deep down I also knew I was lying to myself.  Dear God Almighty, after waiting those decades before I was honest with myself about my alcoholism and took my first steps and quit; I can tell you this for certain, I am never drinking alcohol again.
I AM SOBER.  THANK GOD ALMIGHTY I AM SOBER AT LAST.

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Beginnings. There are always beginnings.

My child has warned me not to out myself as an alcoholic. Sober that is, never the less, an alcoholic. Shhh I am warned, that I should not inform others of my disease.  Somehow am I still tainted by those choices to have a drink which turned into a decision leading me ultimately to consuming around 600 milliliters in three hours each night before bed, for the last three years of my drinking alcohol.  But I wasn't an alcoholic I told myself.  I did not drive when I had consumed more than the equivalency tests showed I should.  Why I thought to myself, "I am an Honor's Scholar."  See there, "I am not an alcoholic," I reassured myself; and then once home drowned my neurons into an ethanol induced stupor.  Yes being honest with myself sure came with some brutal realizations.  Sure sucked being me for a while.  However, I sucked it up buttercup.  Then again does not everybody at some point in their life think that it sucks?  Meanwhile, most everybody forgets to deep breathe, take a second, then realize soon this will pass into another minute of life.

I want to save more for later so enough about me.  This is just my release that in some small way I may out myself as an alcoholic; and without repercussions from society for being a sober alcoholic and all of its stigmatas; as my child has forewarned me of.

This is my way of SHOUTING out to the world that; I AM SOBER.  THANK GOD ALMIGHTY I AM SOBER AT LAST.  Okay then, well at least coming up to my twenty-second month of sobriety Thanking God each and everyday.  Also remembering to love and forgive myself and others.

The grass is green in this pasture of sobriety I forage.  Peace.

I am sure not all readers will agree with me; It is what it is tho.
Post your thoughtful comments and let's enjoy a peaceable conversation about life, sobriety, and living.  Sit back now, put your feet up, and let's let the conversation begin.

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